Okay i actually think im crazy, i think i need some counselling? Here is why:
okay so i always lie in school, if ppl were to find out i was lying i would be the laughing stock, and i'm pretty sure i could be in jail if there was a law saying u cannot lie to the extent i lie to.
also so i basically asked this guy today (were frndz and were pretty close, i've always thought he was good looking but i didn't actually like him or anything) if he wanted a bj. being a horny boy he said yes and were hooking up soon. also there is this other gr.12 whom i actually wanna get banged by and he wants me too so were getting it on soon. back to the other guy whom i asked if he wanted a bj, well one of my best friend is head over heals for him, they used to date and she is still not over him yet. I feel like im such a bad person, am i actually doing this, if she finds out she will be heart broken. sometimes i feel like im actually a crazy pyshco. i dont know what to do. i dont value my virginty like most ppl do, i just cant come to terms with the existence of god--i'm raised in a very religious family. i even questioned the belief of a conscience, i actually dont think i have one.
But here are the things i want in life(things that most ppl want):
I want to go to an ivy league school, and become a surgeon
I want money
I want a husband one day someone who loves me
Maybe even a small family of my own with kids (i can picture it)
These are all things people typically want and yet i feel like im crazy
i know this question is very confusing but what should i do, do u guys ever feel like this ever?? what is wrong with me?? if i can reach out for help by even posting this i have some hope left right...
btw: im 15 if that helps
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i dont think ur crazy at all! so what if u want to hav sex with a hot guy? but ur friend... :// i dont know. id sugest not doing it because of ur friend, bc u could lose her && shed be really sad like you said. but the bj thing...dont do it, i mean unless u really want to. i wouldnt suggest it. :// i mean...youd be okay with giving,, and not recieving? well actually, nm i think its okay. yal r friends, and its like a **** buddie. no strings attached. i think that your not crazy,, your just being normal. && u have plans for youself in the future. so...i think ur okay. but if u feel crazy because your doing it, (asking the guy if he wanted a bj,, and getting ready to hook up wiht ur friends ex..) the maybe you shouldnt do it? bc ur right, if word got out.. youd be screwed.
idk if this helped at all. best of luck! do what feels right, if u have to think about it twice, then most likely it isnt the best thing ever.
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convinced! The universe (and its properties) is quite spectacular. I guess in case you repost your question on the Physics communicate board, you may want to get solutions that placed your questions better into perspective. i imagine the physicists have actually theories to respond to questions which includes "at the same time as the dirt and planets and all that ends does the universe? or does the blackness in simple terms keep goin on and on?" As for, "Why is there a Universe?" you'd be needing to modify this question somewhat; otherwise, the physics human beings will clarify the "large Bang concept," which, i'm assuming (undesirable undesirable undesirable), isn't the reply you decide on. So, you may want to ask, "Is there reduce to the universe? And if it extends infinitely, is there a level the position atomic count number/power ceases to exist? or something to that result. As for G/god, there is not any necessity for G/god to exist and for there to be a Universe. G/god, in accordance to three, created the universe. yet this concept is basically sufficient for the reply 'Why is there a Universe?'--no longer mandatory; yet, no human being, as of recent, has given an significant answer to the question 'Why is there a Universe?' perchance sometime you'll supply us this answer.
If you feel bad about possibly hurting your friend, you do have a conscience.
You aren't crazy, you are trying to come to terms with being a young woman, raised in a religious home which carries with it certain expectations. Once you start being sexually active, and BJs count, you need to take responsibility for your actions.
Yes, your friend could be hurt.
Figure out what is worth it for you.
Give the kid his bj. Do your best and consider it practice.