I'm a freshman in high school and I have a boyfriend. There's this girl who's been my friend more maybe a year and a half. We're best friends. It wasn't until back in December that I started to kind of have feelings for her. We were at a party together and it was her first time drinking. We were both drunk and I kept kissing her. She didn't really kiss me back but she didn't ask me to stop. So we made out a little bit. I didn't realize I liked her until that moment, but of course I was denying it to myself. I thought I was straight!! So the next day, she made it seem like she didn't want to do anything that we did together and that I somewhat forced her into it. As time went on, my feelings started getting stronger and stronger for her. Then, last night, we went to another party together. We both got super drunk, and this time she got WASTED. She kept calling me pretty and kissed me multiple times. We made out again, but this time I could tell she wanted it. I'm not sure if it's cause she was drunk or maybe it meant something. But we both have boyfriends. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE my boyfriend. But I really like this girl, a lot. I'm not sure what I should do... I can't tell her. It isn't that simple. I don't want to ruin our friendship. But this morning we just laughed about what happened last night, like it meant nothing. She seemed slightly more eager to chat with me though on Facebook. But I'm so lost on what I should do. Help??

I also want to add that I can't exactly see myself actually dating a girl... I mean maybe, but nothing 'formal' if you know what I mean? I'm mean, she gorgeous and adorable and I love kissing her and stuff, but I don't know... Having a girlfriend just seems kind of weird to me. So like I said, I don't know what to do?!?!