I have been struggling with this for a long time. I recently came out to my mum and my best friend. Both of them were absolutely fine with it and accepted me. Now i am really regretting my decision by telling them. Now I began thinking that i might now be gay. Well i do often find myself looking at girls than boys. I just look at boy as friends and nothing more. I have never been in a relationship. I often fantasize about being with a girl, having kids. A girl I want to build my future with. When I try thinking about boys in a sexual way, i feel uncomfortable. Sometimes I think that i am forcing myself to be gay and sometimes to be straight. I think i made a mistake by coming out. When i think about kissing a girl and going future, i have no problems with that.Outdoors, I look at boys when they go past me, but that is it. Nothing future. I am really confused, It is a phase i am going through or do I need time to accept myself. I mean if I was sure about me being gay, I would have loved myself. Oh I forgot, I am 19.
I would appreciate your answers
Thank you
Update:@Yolanda
The moment you suggested me to try going on a date with girl or guy, I clearly knew I would choose the girl. Sometimes when I look at a guy, all I see is a non-living subject!!!
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Just go with what you like. You have the right to change your mind if you need to. Stop with the labels.
You should like someone because you like them, not necessarily b.c of gender.
But if you feel this way toward girls, it seems that you ARE lesbian. You probably have to accept yourself, it's most likely not a phase if you feel this strongly about it. Try out dating both girls and guys maybe?
You should love yourself regardless. See what happens when you get romantic feelings for a girl vs. a boy.
It seems you've already figured this out for yourself, because you seem to truly like girls better.