Please do not think this is a troll or try to make a joke out of this. I REALLY think I am going crazy. I've been having ideas of killing people or trying to stab squirrels or small animals. I've been going through a rough time in my life, and I'm slowly geting over it. I'm bullied constantly. I can truly say the only person making me stop with the thoughts is my sister. I don't want to kill myself or hurt myself, I just feel the urge to kill someone else. This is bad and I'm SCARED!!! Help me, and please don't think this is a joke! Just a few days ago I picked up a knife and tried to find which one looked the 'coolest'.
I'm younger than 16, and a girl. PLEASE, DON'T SAY I'M OVERREACTING!!! That won't help me, if you say something like that to me... PLEASE HELP
Update:I also get dizzy easily and my vision blacks out occasionally. I get really mad at people, really fast.
I believe and try to get others to believe that I am just 1 years old because I don't want to grow up. Really, I am not 1 years old, but I want to believe that because I DO NOT want to grow up. It's my worst nightmare.
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First of all, if you are being bullied, particularly at school - do something about it. Report it to a trusted teacher or straight to the Principal. All schools have measures in place to deal with this. The bullying is not helping your general frame of mind so take this one issue out of the way by getting it stopped.
As for the other things, as you write them there are signs that you may have depsression or that you may be on the verge of fitting - possibly you are suffering panic attacks. Go to your Doctor (perhaps take your sister along for support) and be sure to mention everything you have referred to her. Your Doctor can check for several things and may advise that you be referred for counseling. Good luck
I'm not trying to be horrible but I think it is best that you go and speak to your doctor. Your doctor can refer you to somebody. In the UK they refer you to camhs. A mental health professional can help you understand why you are having these thoughts and help you control them. Another good think to do would be to talk to a teacher, or someone else you trust.
why should other creatures (people or animals) suffer from your craziness? control your thoughts and waste your energy on something you really like to do (hobbies). don't waste your time with negative thoughts because sad enough, you're not gonna end well. Good luck!