so, heres the story. I have always been sort of gay, and fairly effeminate. I have never found guns, computers, video games, skate boards or any of that stereo typical "guy stuff" very interesting, I have always been more interested in singing, I every now and then make short films(that is sort of gender nuetral), I love painting my nails, gossiping, and I get along much better with girls, and I always thought I was just a femm, gay, guy. But this evening, at my little sisters birthday party, her and her little friends had a cosmotologist who was also a friend of my moms come over and do their hair and make u and nails, and they wanted me to get a make over and I decided to. infact, eventually, they got me dressed up in a dress and everything. I never felt more comfortable, natural, or like myself untill then. It was wierd, as if I just all of a sudden stepped into myself. Also, I passed REALLY well, like, I mean, I was almost unmistakeably a girl at that moment. The big problem is, my mom would never allow me to change untill I'm 18(Im 14 will be 15 this july) and I'm pretty sure I would get beat to **** at school. I dont know what to do I really love being a girl and think I might be one and really want to just unleash this side of me but it would **** up my whole life, pretty much every aspect of it. please help. thx 4 ur time :)